with three people my ages who are all the same religion and I have known for a very long time. And yet I feel more alone than ever. I asked myself last night when I was in bed, why do you feel alone? Perhaps it's because I never seem to interact with them, I just see them in the morning and then at dinner time. I don't know anybody at my courses. I have developed sevre... sivir... very bad social anxiety issues. I honestly feel that I will move back after this semester is done. I like the student lifestyle but I don't think that I will be able to last here. I wanted this to work, very much so. But I just feel alone. I been having panic attacks. Not as bad as my mums or anything that would get me some kind of medication but I don't know how else to subscribe it. I will be fine when I have things to do but whenever I get even a small amount of downtime I just start to panic about money, about uni, about how lonely I am, about how I look.
As always I don't expect pity, I don't expect any action. It's enough to know that someone knows.
So Cold.
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