Am I lying to myself?

Some days I want her more than others.
Some days I want her back more than others.
Some days I wish that it didn't hurt this much.
Some days I wish that she wasn't so good natured.
Some days I wish I'd never met her.
Some days I wouldn't trade it for the world.
Some days I stop caring.
Some days I care to much.
Some days I get over myself.
Some days I don't.

Am I lying to myself when I say this?