Dealing with fallout, advice and replies.

One for micheal the others for Rachel.

Micheal your worries are very true. I do depend on you. Because just like you I changed. I was a loner for a lot of school. Maybe a single friend who wasn't always around. I was good at school and ultimately I think that's where my education fell through. But that's for another time. I was arrogant and opinionated, and never afraid to share, even when it would have been better to stay silent. Then I met you. Then made a friend who always wanted to be around me, to listen and discuss. You mellowed me out and eased up the less desirable traits. I would have had friends, but not as many without you. And now my friends are leaving me and I'm left to my own devices. Maybe your influence will stick, maybe it won't. I just hope you can stand the me that will show up.

Now on to Rachel. First some advice about blogging. Opinions are Gods gift to bloggers. Doesn't matter what it is. If you have an opinion then write it, flesh it out. Some will flop don't worry. At the end of the day I think it helps if you solidify your own opinion with text. Even if it's just friends who read it. They care enough to read, then they probably care about your opinions. Now that I look at it this is as much for my benefit as it is (potentially) yours.

And second. I took my time and thought as I said I would. I could have just messages you this but I'm always up for a little show boating. And I understand. Yes I jumped from extreme to extreme and I didn't listen to what you'd told me: I still live you just now it's more the way you love me, as a friend, someone to care deeply about. What you said has changed some things and left others alone. And you've both dented and rue forced my pride at the same time. Congratulations Rachel. And thanks.