Did it really help.

All this time away thinking about what to say? Well It's given me some things to say so it worked to a degree.

People say Dannevirke is a shithole. Now I'm not denying it. But I love Dannevirke because of one thing. People I love are here. I've made sure to surround myself with the diamonds present in this "shithole". But does that make me a shit or a diamond? And I'm sure that everyone else considers themselves and their friends the diamonds. It's all in the perspective. That and human nature. Nobody is going to think less of themselves and their friends. It's just not something that is done. We are very social creatures humans but we focus on the betterment of ourselves. No I lied. Most people here are ignorant assholes that don't move outside of what they consider normal. And when they get burned they wonder why. Congratulations Micheal. Facebook has successfully defended your argument.

A slight oxymoron. But the two are dependant on each other. For while we focus on the betterment of ourselves it's society on which we measure the supposed "betterment". So if we had no society then there would be no drive with which we force ourselves to better ourselves.

I had a dream that was useful force once but surreal at the same time. The useful part was a very weird but surprisingly good idea for a story. I seem to be swimming in ideas right now. It's about something I call Recursion Theory. Recursion is weird and hard to explain but as far as I can gather it's when a computer program goes through a task to gain access to information to solve a problem. At the end of the tasks it tries to solve the problem and if it can't It goes through the tasks again. I'm sure that my brother will correct me or somebody will when I ask them but that's how I understand it. But anyway Recursion Theory. Baring my flawed understanding of it then the idea goes like this. The universe is a state of a recursion problem. So each time the universe ends a new one is created but it's slightly different. And the character manages to escape the end of each universe and ends up at the same point in the next. The story follows him as he goes through the Recursions meeting himself and his friends and all the ways that they are different. His main objective is to get back to his own Recursion but eventually he tries to bring someone with him. And that's as far as I've got.

The surreal thing is that I lived through part of the story line. And one of the recursions featured a scene that was exactly the same as when Tania said no to going out with me. And as far as I know dreams are not supposed to contain picture perfect memories. It was rather weird and slightly painful. I mean I am completely fine with what happened. But reliving it was not something I care to repeat. Even if it was only a dream.

Well the post is longer than I expected it to be. But I still have more to say. I have to say that I love Red VS Blue. It's a great comedy series and I wish I had a friend like Caboose. I mean Micheal is already like Church, and as far as estimates go I'm like Tucker. With Bad sex jokes. Actually bad jokes in general. Now we just need Caboose, a tank and a badass girl who is better at everything than me Micheal or new caboose friend. Yeah we're not likely to get that. First, Tank. Just no. Second. A dumbass is not as well tempered as Caboose. He'd be a jackass. Third, I'd probably get beaten up by the girl. Which makes sense because that happened in the series. Come to think of it. We should probably leave it at we seem somewhat like these characters.

I don't want this to end. I'm completely at peace with myself and the world writing this. And yet all things must end. Everything. Even the moments in time we never wish to end. The moments we wanted to last forever. I'm sorry for what I did. I know that I should have done it differently looking back at it. But what happened happened. And what happened was meant to happen. And I do not regret one iota of what I did. Because I believe that it was meant to happen. And could not happen any other way. I may feel sorry for the things that I did to others. But regret will not change anything. We put our best foot forward. And hope it doesn't get blown off.