Getting lectured.

Nobody really likes it when it's a criticism but when its a chance to improve your own knowledge based on the experiences of someone who has done more and knows more than you then chances are you'd take it. However when it comes to something that is as volatile as religion, well then it turns into a fifty fifty on whether or not you take it. I say this because I recently went to June Weekend. Which is a bible studies weekend that's run over queens birthday weekend. Which is generally in June, hence the name.

And at June weekend I had heaps of fun which is generally what happens which makes it a general fixture in my year around this time, plus LNI (Lower North Island). Both of which I missed last year. One for Fiddler and the other for Rachel's ball. And my parents are helping out with LNI this year so I'm not getting out of it even if I wanted to. But anyway onto the reason that I'm writing.

The speaker, who was American, was speaking on Romans 7 and 8. And he said, (Paraphrasing) "If you don't hate this life then you probably need to look at your attitude towards this world and Christ." And I don't hate this life. I enjoy the people that are in it and as I've stated before (somewhere) I believe that everybody has the potential for good and sure there are some bad eggs and rough times but there always seems to be some kind of light at the end. So this mean that I need to look at my attitude towards Christ? I'm still not sure. And I'm fine with waiting. Just because you are patient doesn't mean that you don't want the end to come. So I don't see waiting as a bad thing. There's plenty to busy ourselves with in the mean time. Friends to find and adventures to have. In all honesty I don't know what this means.

In all probability I think it means that I don't think I agree with everything that my religion says. For much of the doctrine I believe it whole-heartedly most days. (There are some days when I have a bit of a depression) But does this slight disagreement mean that I should leave? I mean some of that could be attributed to me just being hopeful and naive. But it still haunts me when I go to religious events. Because I don't quite fit. I've never quite fitted.