I come forth to conquer. And in a sense I do. Just not to conquer people. Instead I'm engaging some personal demons. I hate public occasions, public speaking is okay because they're obliged to listen. But public occasions enable people to get a free glance at whatever act your putting on at that point. Wether it be really you or some act or facade you've invented to make you feel better in a social situation. I hate it. You feel pressured to fit in to a particular group and that instantly alienates other people. Not to mention I hate small talk. I prefer large talk with my friends involving interpretive dance and the such like.
Maybe I'm over-reacting but every other dance or party has had me alienated and wanting to leave. But my Girlfriend wanted to go so I'm going. I've been thinking a lot lately, not sure if it's a good thing or not. But i've been inventing worlds and story concepts left, right and centre. It can sometimes piss you off to no end but It's also having a negative effect on my schoolwork. And they tell me that i'm day dreaming. I'm not this is harder.
Well I'm out. Seya.
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