Visceral. Far more.

I've been watching the Pacific. It's considered to be for some the companion to Band of Brothers. Seeing as they both chronicle different parts of the second world war. And it's far more visceral than Band of Brothers. You see people clean blown up. Shot off legs, people mown down by machine guns. I didn't tell anyone but I had a nightmare about it last night. It was weirder than the reality, for instance my leg grew back... but that's beside the point. It was still terrifying enough to warrant being called a nightmare. After watching Band of Brothers I thought I knew something about the second world war, and I did learn some things. But those things kind of pale in comparison. At it's heart Band of Brothers was still a very much television series. Whereas it seemed that the pacific was a lot more focused on what it did to the marines that fought there. Both physically and mentally. So less  television series more a periodically released documentary. I'm sure that both series wanted that but in some areas it worked better than the other.

But as much as I like both of these two miniseries I can't just devote and entire blog post to it. It seems both to short and fairly lazy on my part. So some points.

First. I may buy a printer in the near future. It's easier to edit work that's on paper, or at least that's my feel about it. Also it's easier to imagine a character if you give them a face. Like the most real of my characters is still a girl based on a sketch I saw once. The sketch somehow managed to convey the girl almost completely, her fears of inadequacy, her attempts to fit into society and her actual want to be who she was. I've lost the sketch and I can't find it again, and any attempts by me to replicate would just corrupt the memory I have. So it stays as it is, a memory and a character. I feel obliged to say that it wasn't a abstract sketch or something. It was a just a sketch of her looking in a mirror. It was far better than anything I could ever do but it wasn't the best artistic thing I've ever seen.

Second. I'm over Tania. It's unrealistic to pursue a relationship with her. In hindsight I should have realized this earlier but I always was a little clingy. It reminds me of something that Micheal said to me once, I can't remember it exactly but it went along the lines of not wanting to move on because perfection in some facet is better than something less in every facet. Obviously I've paraphrased that. However as far as I can tell he's changed his standpoint on this and I still cling to it a little. If you find what you consider to be perfection and something happens then you should stay as involved with them as you can. I'm not suggesting you brood for a very long time and hang around them while brooding, I can tell you from experience that there is no way in hell or high water that it will ever be a good idea. Never, unless for some reason the person is attracted to the stalker type, then by all means, go for it. But there are plenty more fish in the sea (just to beat a dead horse). Although you think they may be the only larger than life rainbow fish with all the right moves in all the right places, you never really know.

Third. Well there is no third.

Have fun, Stay safe both from the sun and sexual predators, and probably the most important... Have fun. (Again)