... when I begin to prefer the world of a game to that of my real life. Sad but true and I have done it a few times. But it's not something I didn't like. In all honesty it's something I enjoyed. To lose yourself in a world where you most definitely matter, where the wrong decision can cost you your life and if you make the wrong move then the world as you know it ends. I enjoy feeling that I matter.
That's why so many of my character traits are based on me. Because I think that if I can be important in some facet of something then I will feel better for it. I also tend to write out my flaws. I know I'm not perfect but when we draw ourselves we hardly ever include imperfections. Not that all of us can draw well but you don't purposefully include things that are wrong. And I never do that when creating a picture of somebody through words either. I tend to make them perfect rather than flawed. Well at least for most of it. The Organic AI characters are inherently flawed so I have to write that in. But I imagine the rest of them will be perfect. Just because it's me writing. But their computer programs so that's acceptable.
I'm trying to find a cover photo for my stupid facebook timeline. I wanted something that said something about me. Something that described my character. But in the end I went for Splinter Cell Conviction. Because that says everything about me. Yeah right. It's a great game, I really loved it. But I don't think it says anything about me.
I'm a little sad at the moment. For reasons I can't pin down. But that's not really important. I'll be a little quieter in class, I'll sink into myself some more, then I'll come back, because I've done this a million times. Oh habits, you are so comfortable, but I wish I could snap your neck.
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