Normally I'd be using this combination to check out CPU usage and other cool nerdy stuff. But it's actually a website that is nice.
http://www.cad-comic.com
It's about games and movies and there is a webcomic. And it's the webcomic that kinda freaks me out. I look at Ethan the main character and subconsciously draw parallels. I know that I'm only a little like him but still without care I could well become someone like him only less. Because a doppelganger is never as good as the original, no matter what the story is.
But then what do I do. It's hard to concentrate since I ran out of Ritalin. I don't want to go and get more because the doctor will just ask me to go to a psychiatrist to try and get rid of some work ethic and latent anger issues. Yes I have trouble working productively and I get angry a lot. I just counter that with my hyperactivity. At least so far that's what has happened. I'm not so sure it will work with a desk job. I'm stuck in a cycle where I want to do better, improve slightly then slump back to where I was. I want to make some inspiring speech about how I will rise above my competition and all that stuff but I just won't unfortunately. The cycle will continue.
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