Planetside2. Finally.

I'm in the beta for planetside 2. And I'm a little frightened that it won't live up to my hype. I have looked at trailers, gone through forums, speculated, hell I've practically salivated over this thing. So what do I do if it's not what I expect? Curl up most likely. Probably go play kingdom hearts. It's a good game but it shows it's age a little. Like many games I think they should re-render the game with the latest titles engine. So that the original game is a little more polished. That's just my wishful thinking however. If a game is good but has retro graphics I will still play it. Just because looks should not take away from the merit of the game. The same way looks should not take away from the merit of a girl. However I am guilty of taking looks to far into account in my appraisal of girls. Thankfully a lot of the people I take interest in have great personalities as well. So so far the situation has not deteriorated that much. I should probably stop doing that however, my luck can only last so long.

I'm happy and sad. Happy because we finally won a game. Sad because I'm still not quite emotionally whole. I'm still reeling a bit from my grandma's death. I'm not doing as well as I thought I would and im not doing as well as people around me are led
To believe. Maybe I should get rid of my new slight dependence on video games. They help, they distract me. If you can find a truly immersive game the. It will do you wonders.
It will take stress away and leave you relaxed. at least in my experience. But the immersion is
The dependent thing. It needs to be immersive, you need to care, it needs to come to the front of your mind for the time when you pick up the controller or lay hands on the mouse and keyboard. For that moment it should occupy most of your attention. At least that's how I deal with my problems. You may have something different.