Daisy

Daisy, daisy give me your answer do. I'm half crazy all for the love of you. Except... I'm not. Someone said to me that if I wanted something I should reach for it no matter what the cost was. Or maybe I said that to me, it sounds like something I'd say. But what's the point in reaching for something that is always looking the other way. I like kassie well enough, she's a good friend but I'm not looking for more than that from her. I'm don't know who I'm looking for. It's like I expect some princess to need my help and cue story time. I still want you but I don't want you as much as I did want you. If that makes any sense at all. My brain is turning to mush. I can't form cohesive sentances I can't say things correctly. It's weird to even consider that I'm slowly turning into a babbling wreak. It won't be a stylish marriage, it won't be a marriage at all. I'd say I'm not looking for love but I'm not looking for something to throw away. And people wonder why I play video games so much. The objectives are clear cut, you do this this this and then you win. I don't have objectives there is no plan there isn't anything except me blundering around looking for happiness. And it seems in short supply. I'm sorry. This is just me complaaining. I will warn you in future if it's one of these posts.