And I'm still getting frustrated. My computer still isn't working properly. Replacing the RAM might help but I don't want to shell out on two brand new RAM sticks. I thought I had enough problems as it is but this just seems to take the cake. It only wants to black screen of death as it is colloquially called when I'm playing games and so far that seems to be the only blessing. I've heard of people having black screens just because they were using the computer. I payed a lot of hard earned money for this computer. I don't want it to go to waste. I also don't want to have it professionally repaired because that costs a lot of money. I'm kinda stuck in a hard place.
Between this and my feelings and thinking about what I'm going to do in later life. It's slowly getting harder and harder for me to keep my temper in check. And it's slowly getting harder and harder for me to stop getting unbearably sad outside of when my temper overflows. Seems like I only have three emotional settings these days. Sad, angry or indifferent. All I wanted was a little surety. Is that to much to ask?
I can't live in the moment. I don't know what the moment is for.
And God. I know you don't read my blog but... oh who cares. You know anyway.
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