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I think I burnt out the power supply in the computer. Either way somethings wrong. So the blog was written on the 11th of october at ten.

Anyway I feel like a cuddle. Which is like a hug but a bit longer and as a general rule not standing up. Although it can happen, but mostly it becomes slow dancing. Unfortunately I have no one to cuddle. And that's the imediate thing I think of when I look at my lack of a relationship. Yeah i'm a physical person. Bu not as much as I thought. It's the intemit moment inherent in the cuddle. The feelin of protection, the ability to say what you want to say. Also because it's safe and warm and you feel in that instant you are definitively loved and cared for. The feeling that somebody understands you and if they dont that they will do there best to try to.

Anyway I've made up my mind. I just need one conversation. I don't think I ever got over my ex. She said she didn't want or wasn't ready for a relationship and I said I'd wait. But what if she doesn't want me to. I just need to ask her that question. I'm happy waiting for her. I'm a man of my word. But if she doesn't want me to wait then I shouldn't. Because it's not going to make anybody happy least of all her. Knowing she has the annoying lover who she can't get rid of.

It's late. I'm taking the computer to a computer repairs shop tomorrow. Hopefully it should be fixed sharpish. But in any case I'm going to Micheal's soon. To post this (Adendum: I posted this off the old computer which I fixed) to talk and maybe borrow the computer for design work if he lets me. That's the thing I'm most concerned about really. I mean the games and music and movies are nice and I've invested a lot of time in them. But this is important to my future. Future *Shudder*

iPod's almost out of battery. Oh well i'll just charge it and fall alsleep listening to it like I alwasy do. Story is going well. After panicing about the computer for a while I relaised I had better things to do. So i prayed to God. Not about the computer. I'm not that shallow. I prayed about friends family and want for understanding. I jsut wish I wasn't such a dissapointment to those around me. And also for a while I managed to fall into a world that I created through writing. I'm not going to say that I'm back to my former skill but a little grace has been given.

In the name of the Emperor, Finish this!