Oh Nostalgia. You've found me again.

I was reading through my old blog posts and I found this.

Well after spending not long thinking I've come to a conclusion. While I love my girlfriend I can't control what will happen later on in life. All I can do is be the best boyfriend I can and come hell or high water at least I tried. If we fall apart so beit. But I don't want that to happen. For the first time in a while I feel a connection. I've had girlfriends before where I just had them because I thought they looked pretty. It's very shallow but there you have it. Theres always something about the girls I dated that I liked. And I still do. I don't just suddenly not like a persons trait that I loved before. I keep loving it, and in a small way them. I don't want to break up with her. But I do realise that eventually I'm going to have to step up or step out. I have made some sacrifices but that numbers gonna increase.

I have one thing to say. I love my girlfriend. And I always will. In one way or another. I will always love her spontaneity. Even if shes no longer mine.

I'm Out. Seya.


 And I tried to be the best boyfriend I could. I can give myself points for that. Whether I was or not? Well I don't know. And sometimes It's better left unknown.

I don't know why I did this. Maybe it's a message to myself more than anything else.

In the name of the emperor, Finish this!