How do we expect prayers to be answered?

I've prayed for immaterial things before. Sometimes I received them. Sometimes I didn't. I'm not going to go through a long list of things that I've prayed for. That would reveal a considerable amount of information, some of it I'm not entirely comfortable releasing. But If i always pray and have no idea how to understand the results what am I supposed to do. People have told me i'm supposed to pray for meaningful things. On the other hand people have also told me that when you are in doubt or want something or need guidance you should pray. So how do I separate meaningful from unmeaningful? Nobody's ever told me that and I'm no closer to knowing the difference for myself. I've prayed for guidance over the girl. As far as I'm aware I've received none. But I have made a decision. So I suppose that could be considered Divine. That's been my problem I suppose. I never knew what to attribute to God and what to attribute to bad luck. Or rather luck in general.

Dammit Rachel why do you always do this. "You should listen to this band." I listen to the band. Download the album. Listen to it, like it. End up listening to it a lot. it's not necessarily a bad thing so I suppose the use of the word dammit was a bit harsh. I'm not even exasperated. It's just a situation I've found myself in twice and knowing her it's bound to happen again. And I'm completely fine with that.

I told Rachel who I liked. And now I'm debating whether or not I should I put this section in. It's already written in my head. But I'm odd like that. It's written and it may not even see the light of day.

I tried to uninstall my Anti-virus and replace it with the Microsoft version. No noticeable difference but it's from Microsoft and somehow that's more comforting than a mysterious external corporation. That went as well as stuff ever does. As in it didn't. I ended up not having antivirus for three days. But it's all fine now. I have antivirus.

Last exam tomorrow. And after that. I don't know what I'm going to do. I could do what I did last summer. Bum around and do nothing. But that seems defeatist. So I'll probably end up bumming around on the computer writing. I know my mum hates me spending so much time on the computer but still. I write the best on the computer as far as I can tell. Well I may not write best but I enjoy it the most. Mostly the rhythmic tap of the keys. It's somehow relaxing.

Saunders thinks that the kind of blog I write is silly. Public journal that is. But I like writing blogs and I have nothing else to write about. So keep your opinion Saunders. You don't read it, you don't want to and that's fine with me.