It's not other people that are the problem. Sure I've had the clinging problem in the past and I don't expect that it's gone yet. But It's me that has the problem. I know I'm not God's gift to man. I know that I may not be the best, or the most considerate, or the funniest. In fact I'm the equivalent of a Swiss army knife really. I do everything. A little of funny, a little of understanding friend. Just sometimes not very well. I have to start accepting that. That sometimes I'm really not suited to a situation. And that sometimes the situation will not change because you wish it will.
I want to forget sometimes, but that would change who I am. Experience makes us as much as anything. I just don't want it to change me into mopey guy. If you get what I mean by mopey guy. I'm not sure what to do with myself now. It all seems so distant. I'm not like depressed or anything. I'm not even sad. Just empty. I've felt like this before. I'm sure I have. I just can't place it. It's annoying now, because I'm going to spend the rest of the night trying desperately to remember where it all came from. Or rather where I've felt this before.
Can't think of anything cept the feeling. This post is gone.
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