We all...

We all feel down at some point. But why does my weird have to be when others are feeling down. I say my weird because I have no clue what direction it is. It certainly isn't up, I've been happier. And it certainly isn't down, I've been worse. But just because there are times that I've been better and times when I've been worse doesn't mean that It couldn't be a small improvement or the opposite of improvement. Dis provement? Well I still call it a weird because it's taken me to a place that is neither happy nor sad, It's kind of somewhat eccentric indifference. Where I'm fine where I go from here and I'm in a little eccentric mood. Hell I don't even know If I'm eccentric but it's the best word I've heard so far to describe the way I act sometimes.

I imagine scenarios that will never happen in my head. Things where I'm awesome and get the girl and stuff. It's harmless really but it's part of my psyche. The internet has now reverted to dial up speeds. Which annoys me. Because I'm almost out of anime to watch. Wait. No I'm not. I still have Familiar of Zero, Digimon and what I have of Beyblade. But I'm supposed to be studying. So maybe the reset is a good thing. I did study again.

I returned the NCEA disc my maths teacher lent me. And was going to wish a friend happy birthday, but unfortunately she wasn't there so I had to leave my birthday happy with her mother. That made more sense in my head.

Just think. One word. One single word and the secrets out. Or one tiny scrap of information and then somebody figures it out. My friends are smart. I never imagined that information and secrets were that fragile. Again I'm tempted to just throw it out there and hang the consequences. But then I think about how it looks. And then the temptation dies down and lies there. Ready for the next time I'm writing a blog or talking about this sort of stuff.

I feel like playing a third person shooter with an assault rifle. I used to love third person shooters. It gave me more character awareness. But now I like the first person character immersion. I should really find a list of free third person shooters and then download one. Ghost Recon online jumps to mind but it's still in british beta. Which is to say. In beta. But only in Britain.

And after looking into it. My options are wait for Ghost Recon. Or Resident Evil. Which involves walking backwards head shotting things. So not what I was hoping for.

Dance like your disappointed in the world. No real reason for that just another song lyric.

That's me.

In the name of the Emperor, Finish This!