I feel like I'm swimming.

You know when your swimming and everything takes more effort, and even with the increased effort it's still slower. Well both my mind and my body seem to respond slower than normal. My razor sharp comebacks and wit have slowly died into a counterpoint for some point long gone. I've still got red paint on my hands and I have no idea how it got there. The pink shading on my face is thanks to the red face paint but I never remember getting any on my hands. I only just noticed it.

I'm playing league and now I'm back. So the post has been open for about 30 minutes and all it has is what I wrote before. This blog is deteriorating. It's just me complaining. I do quite like the song "Dakota" by Steel Train. It has nothing to do with me anymore. I dunno if it ever did now that I've listened to it. (Coffee's for Closers) Fall Out Boy. Now there's a song I can relate to. Not entirely. There are some lyrics that don't fit me.

I can't explain a thing
I want everything
To change and stay the same on top.
Doesn't care about anyone or anything
Now come together, come apart.
Only get loaded when you read the charts.
Oh baby, 
When they made me
They broke the mold.


To a certain extent. This is me. Except for the charts line and the "doesn't care" line. Change the doesn't care to doesn't care about much and your there. I'm clinging to the pain and I don't want to let go. It's a constant to the very least. Makes  me wonder sometimes. What am I? A squishy ball of teenage angst and brokenness. I'm certainly physically hurt a lot. Just ask my football team and they'll tell you. Nearly every single game I get injured.

Another league game later and all I can think about is the fact that I got a skin when I didn't fufill the criteria. Riot games said that they were giving the skin to people with 10 ranked games. I have played four. 1 win. 3 losses. That was nice or Riot to give me a little pickmeup. Although I still feel sluggish. That's probably why I went 5/5/14. Kill/Death/Assist. Kayle is an awesome character. I'm just not particularly good at her yet. I have enough IP to afford one of the champions. Well One of half of the champions. Most of the champions cost 6300. I only have 3700. So... close. But nope. Spose I better close this thing off. It's not as weird as some of the other posts. But still it feels somehow wrong. Like I'm missing something in front of my face. I'll get it maybe.

In the name of the Emperor, Finish this!