It's not where we're going.

But how we get there. Yeah most of us have been fed this particular metaphysical advice. But I don't think that it's true. The journey is a big part but why undertake a journey if when you get there it doesn't matter. As my brother supplied, "Where we're going is why the journey is undertaken." This was a rather nice Facebook status and I thought I'd write about it.

But what's there to write about if that's all I can think of. I know why I can't write songs and essays now. It's because I get so focused on a particular phrase or idea. Thank you sleepless nights. You've given me something.

People shouldn't be punished for their past, I firmly believe this but sometimes it goes a little blurry. Especially around homosexual's. I know why I hate them now. It's all to do with my upbringing. I was brought up in a very religious family and homosexuality is forbidden in the bible. But it's not just that. My parents are very zealous. They stop short of the disowning for sins and such. But they were still very zealous. We were encouraged to find our own answers inside a very small circle of information. So naturally we came to the conclusion that they wanted us to. I'm not criticizing it. It was a better upbringing than a lot of people can claim. But it was this closed circle and upbringing that I grew to be a bit zealous as well.

But back to faith. My ex sent me a webpage and I started exploring. It's about her religion and a few things struck me. But I'm not going to go into most of them. Mostly because I'm still trying to understand what I think independent of my parents. But it talks about faith. And the word that jumped out at me was conviction. Conviction is a firmly held belief or idea. (Thank you Google define) But it also said that faith was something given to us by God. I can't agree with that. Although I would like to know how they arrived at that conclusion. Anyway... you can't be given conviction. It has to come about by itself. Whether it's through acts, upbringing reading. I also don't believe in baptizing an infant. Baptism is the remission of sins. A baby has committed no sins. Baptism is the affirmation of faith. A baby cannot have faith. It's a baby. It doesn't understand the idea of faith. Let alone the word. Baptism is a willful covenant with God. A baby won't understand that. And the Pastor. While this was an essential position in the early years it's not so now. I've been taught to learn by reasoned debate. That way everyone learns. Even the more intelligent ones. A Pastor is a teacher, and no one wants to refute the teacher. But what if the teacher's wrong. Even in a little thing. Then the teacher doesn't realize his mistake because he's never challenged. Maybe my view's skewed. I'll figure that out as we go along.

And Rachel if you read this. I'm not attacking what you believe. And if it seems that way I'm sorry. I'm still trying to find my faith... and my feet. This is my way of finding that.

In the name of the Emperor, Finish this!